Divine vs. Human

Forgiveness is typically defined as the process of concluding resentment, indignation or anger as a result of a perceived offense, difference or mistake, and/or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution. Some religious doctrines or philosophies place greater emphasis on the need for humans to find some sort of divine forgiveness for their own shortcomings, others place greater emphasis on the need for humans to practice forgiveness of one another, yet others make little or no distinction between human and/or divine forgiveness.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Forgiveness


I have avoided church since leaving my husband. I knew God would have something to tell me that I didn't want to hear. Some call it your conscious speaking to you but I know the difference. I knew the moment I stepped one foot inside my church I would feel it, therefore I avoided church.  "Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed." (John 3:20)

As a family of four, my husband, our kids, and I went to church this past Sunday. From the moment I sat down in the phew till the moment the preacher said we were dismissed, I CRIED. At some points it was more than crying, I was sobbing, weeping, crying out to God begging for forgiveness. My thoughts before going into church on this day was thinking about forgiveness, and weither or not God would forgive me for what I did. Would I still be able to go to heaven? Was I worthy of forgiveness? As always,  the preacher began his sermon and as he spoke GOD spoke to me through him.

 I was saved at age 11 & baptised as well. Every since that day I have known and believed that Christ died on that cross for my sins and has lived inside my heart. Even though I am saved it doesn't mean I will not make mistakes. You always hear the pastor say "Jesus Died On The Cross for Our Sins", it wasn't untill this day in church that I finally understood what that phrase ment. The very sin I commited is already forgiven simply because of the Crucifixion of Jesus Christ. 

"Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery" (John 8:4)
"If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her" (John 8:7)
Jesus asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?", No one sir, "Then neither do I condemn you." "Go now and leave your life of sin." (John 8:10-11)

If God forgives Adulterist, Rapest, Murderers, Thieves, and even those that crucified Jesus then surely I am worthy of forgiveness as well. So if I have Devine Forgiveness then what about Human forgiveness? Humans don't forgive as easily as God. As a matter of fact, When people are hurt they like to point fingers,  hold grudges and retaliate. My pastor made a statement that is very true, " If we dismiss everyone that hurts us eventually we will end up alone".

I know I've learned my life's lesson from my actions and I vow to never hurt my family again. I pray daily that everyone affected by my actions between the months of October and February are able to find forgiveness in their hearts.