It's that time of year again, my bipolar disorder has kicked in.
This year, I have picked up smoking after I would have been quit 2 years this upcoming April. The hubs is working a lot of hours at work so to deal with the loneliness I have become obsessive about work. I love my job. I Love going to work every day. I enjoy doing my job. I want to work as late as possible and would get to work as early as possible every day. Of course this means my children are in school/after care for about 10 hours a day so that sucks. Sometimes, I feel bad for wanting to be at work so much then other times I am merely thankful I have a job. This time last year I was desperately seeking a job and wasn't very successful. My hubs says I have "checked out" again.....mostly he says this because when I am home I am constantly listening to music; when I clean & when I sleep; which is all I really do when I am home lol so I understand.
Christmas was a success...meaning everyone got along pretty well and no major drama erupted. My girls enjoyed their gifts; though I thought they didn't quite get enough presents, my oldest said it was her best Christmas Ever - I loved hearing that. It made me proud.
I am back to dieting again....bad time of the year to start but I figured I might as well since I lost about 6 lbs in the past two weeks not really trying. I think it has something to do with smoking instead of eating....yea i know what you're thinking....I need to quit. I will, when I am ready. Each time I try to quit when others want me to, it never works. I have to do it own my own at my own pace. I am only smoking a pack a week, maybe 3-4 cigs a day and most I have on the weekend is one or two. I do not smoke around my kids, matter of fact they dont have a clue & I want to keep it that way. I think I will make it my New Year's Resolution to STOP smoking LOL - Maybe, Maybe not.
I am going to stop rambling for now.....I am just glad I was able to post something new :)
HAPPY HOLIDAYS FRIENDS!
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