It was just like any other day, with one exception, I was leaving and not coming back. My things were all packed in my jeep, as much as I could fit, and my mind was set. I was leaving my husband and my two children to begin a new life somewhere else, around new people, with a new outlook on life. I turned my back on everything I knew, everything I LOVED and everything that made me feel safe. I looked forward to this feeling of not knowing what to expect. I felt stronger than I had ever been, emotionally anyway. Nothing could stop me, not even myself. Looking in my rear view mirror, I watched my husband with tears in his eyes and my two year old daughter in his arms, waving goodbye. I thought I knew what I was doing, It felt so right, but looking back I couldn't have been more wrong.
Many people questioned my sanity. Others questioned my sobriety. What was I thinking? Was I on drugs, was I going crazy? One could ponder for hours on end why someone like me would make such selfish and self distructive choices. From the outside looking in I had the perfect life. A husband that had a wonderful job, a nice home, a new car to drive, two beautiful and smart little girls. There was no reason for me to work, my husband made more than enough money. I was a stay at home mother and wife with everything I could have ever needed provided for me and yet I left it all.
October 13th 2010 I started a new chapter in my life that has changed me as a person, changed my outlook on life and the people around me. My future has now been re-written with a new path of uncertainty.
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