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These blogs are the raw, unedited truth. This is as real as it gets, no lies, nothing hidden. My cards are laid out on the table. Most people in life try to keep their secrets hidden & in doing so the general population make up their own asumptions of what is going on, this is also known as rumors. I figure, People are going to talk about me so why not give them the truth, all the facts, no parts left out. So, this is me, take it or leave it. Either you like me or you dont but at least Im REAL.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Someone that I use to know

I've made the comment 'oh how i'd give anything to be a teenager again' as i am sure many of you have as well.

There are so many things I would do differently. I would begin with all the people I allowed to hurt me - they were not that important. So many people I would have stood up to if I had only known that later in life I would never have to put up with them. BOYS - oh how they broke my heart. If only someone would have been there to tell me I was beautiful and teach me about having respect for myself.- someone to encourage me to strive in school and pay less attention to the BOYS who said they loved me just to get in my pants. There was of course a few good guys out there. One in particular changed my life by giving me a new perspective.

I started having to make major life decisions even at 17 years old. I experienced things that were beyond my maturity and therefore I made choices without fully understanding the repercussions of my actions. I was guilty of listening to the people around me instead of listening to my heart & doing what I felt was right, simply because I was not fully aware of the seriousness of my circumstances. I was young, in-Love, scared, & unsure of the path my life was supposed to take. I took the easy way out, but in the process,  I HURT SOMEONE - deeply, but unintentionally & I sincerely regret the decision I made that created the pain I caused him.

Obviously, I can't go back in time and undo my mistakes - but I can say I am sorry. Over & Over. If I ever hurt YOU (OR) If your reading this and you know there is someone out there that you hurt; maybe it was intentional or maybe they just got caught up in a moment of anger meant for someone else - FIND PEACE, within yourself & with the person whom you were either hurt by or the person that you hurt. APOLOGIZE, even if they deny it now, they still think about the pain you caused them & it does help to hear a sincere apology.


The Way I see it. . . "IT IS BETTER TO HAVE LOVED  & LOST THAN TO NEVER HAVE LOVED AT ALL" -  & I will always remember . . . . . . . * Love is Pain *

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